~Thankful~

HAPPY THANKSGIVING 2010


My posting may be a little late but I hope everyone
had a wonderful Thanksgiving. Whether you have a big
family or a small one, be thankful of the Love you have.
I have learned a lot in the last few years, but one thing
I have learned is that I am truly thankful for my mother and sister,
the few real friends that I have; who have stuck by me
and helped me through various situations, and even
the seasonal people who have helped me know that I
can be stronger than I ever thought possible.

As we express our gratitude, we must never forget that the highest appreciation is not to utter words,but to live by them.

***Let Go of Worry***

Why let go?

No matter how much you may want to effect a change, there are some problems that can't be solved by any action on your part. You just have to wait and see how things turn out. Worrying about the matter won't help.

What does letting go mean?

Letting go means giving up your sense of control, and this can be difficult to do. Often people feel that if they worry enough, they might affect the outcome. But in those cases and times when control doesn't help and worry only hurts, it's worth the effort to give up both worry and control.

How can you let worry go?

Different people have different ways. Some find that meditation helps (which I have began doing). Some listen to music or sing a song. Try putting your worry in the palm of your hand and blowing it away. Close your eyes and imagine the worry putting on its coat and hat and walking slowly out of the room. The important thing for you is to say good-bye to useless worry.

Check out this amazing article I came across while doing some research, posted by Erika Johnsen "Let It Go"---> http://kortekum.blogspot.com/2010/06/let-it-go-by-t-d-jakes.html

~Music: One Republic~

My all time favorite song by them! Timberland just added a little 'umph' to it.
Apologize


My newest favorite from them!
Secrets

~*Real Talk*~

So the saying goes..."How people treat you is their karma, how you react is yours" if this is the case why is it when I don't react or retaliate I seem to get the shorter end of the stick? or am I missing something hmmm...

Once upon a time, I was the nicest person you would ever meet. I was kind of a pushover (yes, I will admit it). I never had enemies in high school, in fact I was cool with every "Clique" there was from the band "geeks" to the cheer squad to the jocks to the emo crew. After entering college my nice persona stayed in affect until about my 2nd semester when I got a 'back bone' and spoke my mind to people. When it came down to it people knew when I was serious about something, but aside from when I was serious I was still super nice and got along with everyone.

The Point:
I ultimately learned that majority of the people I went to college with were phony and full of it. There were a couple of people that I became so close with but I ultimately paid the price because while they were the ones doing wrong (cheating, using people, lying to people) in order to save their own asses they "threw me under the bus," why?...because I was closest to them or maybe because I was just the most vulnerable. I can never understand why people don't take responsibility for their own actions but yet they claim to be so real. If there is one thing I can't stand besides a liar is having someone lie on my name, but yet there is no point trying to offer my side of the story to the person they tell the lie to for experiences have proven they are still going to remain there being lied to, cheated on, and used. Going back to the quote "How people treat you is their karma, how you react is yours," in the multiple times I have been kicked and let down I have yet to put them on 'blast' by revealing all the evidence I hold and their secrets to the world. So my question remains I do nothing and don't retaliate, I pray and try to figure out why this has happened and yet it seems as thou I get the bad karma, or am I missing something? Am I taking it all as a bad thing when in actuality it is a good thing?

The Lesson:
One thing is for certain from all of this I have definitely learned don't give anyone multiple chances. If you screw me over once that is more than enough. "He that deceives me once, it is his fault; if twice, it is mine."([1659 N. R. Proverbs English, French, Dutch, Italian & Spanish 54])

My Promise to Myself:

To continue to be a better person. To move forward without looking back anymore. Accept that what has happened is what it is and cannot be changed. Let go of all the junk cluttering my mind and move on with positive thoughts. Have faith and know that sometimes life has greater expectations for me than I even have for myself.

***Good riddance and good night blog world. Thanks for being my diary!

"It's not wrong to be nice to everybody but learn to be true to only few. So you won't end up being betrayed by someone whom you've trusted."