So the saying goes..."How people treat you is their karma, how you react is yours" if this is the case why is it when I don't react or retaliate I seem to get the shorter end of the stick? or am I missing something hmmm...Once upon a time, I was the nicest person you would ever meet. I was kind of a pushover (yes, I will admit it). I never had enemies in high school, in fact I was cool with every "Clique" there was from the band "geeks" to the cheer squad to the jocks to the emo crew. After entering college my nice persona stayed in affect until about my 2nd semester when I got a 'back bone' and spoke my mind to people. When it came down to it people knew when I was serious about something, but aside from when I was serious I was still super nice and got along with everyone.
The Point:I ultimately learned that majority of the people I went to college with were phony and full of it. There were a couple of people that I became so close with but I ultimately paid the price because while they were the ones doing wrong (cheating, using people, lying to people) in order to save their own asses they "threw me under the bus," why?...because I was closest to them or maybe because I was just the most vulnerable. I can never understand why people don't take responsibility for their own actions but yet they claim to be so real. If there is one thing I can't stand besides a liar is having someone lie on my name, but yet there is no point trying to offer my side of the story to the person they tell the lie to for experiences have proven they are still going to remain there being lied to, cheated on, and used. Going back to the quote "How people treat you is their karma, how you react is yours," in the multiple times I have been kicked and let down I have yet to put them on 'blast' by revealing all the evidence I hold and their secrets to the world. So my question remains I do nothing and don't retaliate, I pray and try to figure out why this has happened and yet it seems as thou I get the bad karma, or am I missing something? Am I taking it all as a bad thing when in actuality it is a good thing?
The Lesson:One thing is for certain from all of this I have definitely learned don't give anyone multiple chances. If you screw me over once that is more than enough. "He that deceives me once, it is his fault; if twice, it is mine."([1659 N. R. Proverbs English, French, Dutch, Italian & Spanish 54])
My Promise to Myself:
To continue to be a better person. To move forward without looking back anymore. Accept that what has happened is what it is and cannot be changed. Let go of all the junk cluttering my mind and move on with positive thoughts. Have faith and know that sometimes life has greater expectations for me than I even have for myself.***Good riddance and good night blog world. Thanks for being my diary!
"It's not wrong to be nice to everybody but learn to be true to only few. So you won't end up being betrayed by someone whom you've trusted."
"Friendship is not friendship without trust, without it I walk alone."
- James P. Michels Jr. 
It's been a while since my last post...just been super busy. I am in the process of posting a recipe I tried out, but taking a break from that I have been through a lot the last few weeks and need to vent a little. Basically, I'm trying to figure out how the hell can I possibly get myself in similar situations back to back. I am at a point in the situation where there is the potential of losing a dear friend someone I thought I could talk to about anything. My friend blindsided one of his 'friend's' with meeting someone new in his life when she didn't even want to meet them. Upon their introduction the new person tells the 'friend' "I've heard so much about you" when in turn my dear friend has revealed nothing bout this new person to the 'friend'. The 'friend' is confused about what could this person know about me (she has confided a lot to my dear friend). Now comes my situation I have been through a lot with my dear friend, but what I don't understand is if I mean as much as they say I mean to them, why have I yet to hear about this person or know anything/as much as everyone else does? Why didn't my dear friend tell me they were coming or that an introduction was wanted? Now when I really think on it, what has been told to this person about me, have convos I confided in my dear friend been revealed? Why is it such a big issue to talk to me, it wasn't hard before but now it is...why? Overall, I feel like I've been shitted on and my friendship meant absolutely nothing this whole time, but when I look back on all that we have done for one another and how alike we are I just think somethings not right, this can't be happening. The way I see it, why not just be upfront, trusting and honest with me I would have. My fear is the trust in my friendship may be broken because who knows what this person may know and from here on out when I confide something who is to say my dear friend won't go back and tell it without my knowledge.Has anyone else experienced this? Any suggestions?
